Okay, maybe it's the fact that I've been beating myself up about not making time to practice, but in the last few weeks, I have been really self conscious about my ability to use my firearm effectively. I run through scenarios in my head, and I seem to produce nothing but failing outcomes, rather than successful tactics.
This has actually gotten so bad that I have had a few nightmares about it. The main one has been a recurring account of firing at and hitting an individual, but with little effect. It is usually a very short dream that normally startles me awake as the crook normally gets right on me after I have emptied my gun into him to no avail. I had another last night/this morning about not being able to grip the weapon firmly enough to hold it in my hand.
I am not necessarily looking for dream analysis here, I just wanted to share these thoughts, and inquire as to whether or not I am alone in this kind of thinking, if of course you are comfortable sharing.
Train- Open ranges rock, even better if you have a lot of land in the middle of nowhere... run through all the scenarios you want..
Dreams and nightmares are your brains way of working through things in the conscious level, unconsciously.
Running away from someone but getting nowhere, shooting them with no effect, having a 500lb pull trigger, bullets going in slow motion and not hitting the target, etc. all have to do with a feeling of helplessness and lack of self esteem. You need to realize that KNOWING your shortcomings makes you THAT MUCH STRONGER, because you can work to minimize or eliminate them. Don't take it to heart, and as mentioned, do what feels natural...
If you can go to an open range, place 'random' targets around you (in a safe manner, duh!), holster your weapon, run around with your eyes closed (I know, sounds funny), try to disorient yourself, so you don't remember where the targets are... make up some imaginary situation in your head , for example, you have a guy to your left that is yelling at you saying he's going to kill you, and you saw a knife in his hand out of the corner of your eye, open your eyes, look to the 'target' and do whatever YOU need to do to unholster, get on target, and fire. Don't think, do.
Doesn't matter how many 'tactics' you learn, if it's not muscle memory, then you'll go with whatever instincts you have, which may mean putting your arms up to shield from a knife blow, instead of drawing/shooting.
<-- Has NO training experience, I just know what works for me
Hell, have a guy walk behind you and give you instructions as you're walking with your eyes closed... let HIM surprise you and tell you 'when there's a BG attacking'...9/10 it's not gonna be something you can think about, it's gonna be a split second decision.
IOTW, practice, practice, practice... Do what's best for you, if you don't feel like you're learning, or 'good enough' , then try a new method.
Just remember, it's not HOW MANY rounds you get downrange, the only ones that matter, are the ones that HIT.