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ORYGUNNER:
PerhapsI should have responded to your inquiry privately, but I really would like all to receive the message. Ory, I was for a very long time s sniper in S.E. Asia. I rarely say Nam because most of my assigned kills were in Laos and Cambodia, at a time that Congress had forbidden a ground presence there. I enlisted in the USMC, but soon found myself qualified for special training/assignments while on TDY with an entity with stars carved into the wall above the receptionist in Virginia. During that time a number of long range and CQB killswere necessary, each documented. After military service my partner and I attended college & were recruited to works for a large gov't Department. We spent over 30 years together on the streets as GS-1811's, TDY's were also a fact of life then. My partner and I worked in many covert FO's, until his assassination (5, .357 Mag in back at home) There were obviously conflicts that involved the loss of lives, but I am still here.
You see, I have examined and experienced all of the feelings that accompany the taking of another's life. In a one-on-one CQB there is no problem I could discern, clearly him or me, no second thoughts. If you we handling a specific assignment, say a 800 yard pop of a guy drinking a beer & laughing with his friends it did differ, but the requirements of the assignment remained unchanged. Once completed there may, or may not have been feelings; but it seemed that NECESSITY overrode all of those. I knew grunts that truly enjoyed killing, I don think I know a pro that got off on it,twas a job, duty, and it savedAmerican lives overseas!
The only "carry-over" benefit is that, I KNOW, THAT I KNOW, THAT I KNOWI CAN KILL, if I absolutely have to.
CAN I? Is one of the most importantquestions you'll ever face. You must find that answer prior to "the moment", I pray you never have to face. If you house doubt, winning only becomes that much more difficult.