The past year I have not went out much. I used to go out to the club regularily, heck, I used to take my kids to the library on a regular basis and the park. I have suspected this for some time but realize that I am an "Idiot Magnet." When I go out of the house I have a tenancy to run into people thatare hell bent on invading my space, my comfort zone and engage me even when I make it clear (in a friedly way) that I do not want to be engaged.
Last night I left my apartment to go out the club (it has been about 6 months since I last ventured out). I stopped at the gas station to get soem fuel for my truck. As I am walking into the gas station to pay a car that looks like it had rolled down a hill and has the back window completely busted out pulls up beside me. The driver says to me "excuse me...excuse me..do you have some change." I politely said no (I figure it better to at least let the person know that you acknowldge they exist than to ignore them).I said, "I am sorry, no."
My stomach began to turn and I felt extremely uncomfortable because when I went into the gas station the men in the car just sat outside of it. I did not pay for the gas but just went out the back door of the gas station and to my truck and figured that I would go some where else for fuel. I walk to my truck and now the car with the men in it is parked behind my truck and the guys are sitting there obviously waiting for me to come out. They pull the car forward trying to get between a barrier and my truck to pull beside me again, nearly hitting my truck. I walk back over to and into the gas station. I figured I would stand there for a minute or two, wait the men out and then be on my way.
While I was inside I paid the cashier 20 bucks for gas then walked back out the door...the men were now sitting behind my truck in their car, waiting. I walked back into the gas station and just stood there for a few minutes (by this time my heart was racing even more than it already was).
Eventually they pulled away and I walked out to my truck and put the gas in the tank and went on my way.
I do not mean to be rude towards men, promise. But I really want to understand why SOME men seem to not understand that when you pull up beside a woman in the middle of the night and continue engaging her when she obviously does not want to be engaged, why SOME men think that is appropriate behavior? I have been in a self-defense situation and absolutely do not want to ever get even close to being inanother ever again.
Yes, I was armed last night (until I get to the club of course