I'm not going to flame you.
I do carry chambered but have never been comfortable doing it. It's a physiological thing but you should consider switching to a revolver if you can't get over it.
I started on a revolver and carried one more or less for over 30 years. When I switched to a 1911 for city carry (mostly because it's less noticeable) It just didn't feel right. I practice every day, shoot different drills several times a week but still have that nagging doubt about cocked and locked.
My Glock plain gives me the jitters. A plastic gun with no safety.
Last night at the OC Dinner I wore my 629 and felt right at home.
Saturday at the OC Breakfast, I wore my Super Blackhawk and felt nice and cozy.
At the farm I wear my Titanium frame 44 and am just as comfortable as can be.
Monday at lobby day, I'll probably wear my 1911 or another semi and worry about it all day.