My condolences on your loss.
Are you a member of a church? Go there. Maybe even if you are not a member go talk to the folks at one.
Don't like/want church right now? Ask at the Victoria Care Center who does grief counseling. Or ask your family doctor for a referral.
Losing a parent is tough. Even more so if it's the first time you experience someone dying. You may not believe it, or want to hear it right now, but life goes on and the pain grows less. Take care of yourself and whatever family you have so that you can remember your father.